Am I Useless???

I am so insecure about everything, i think i am stupid and feel that my life is nothing and useless. I don't know what i'm going to do anymore. I feel lost and alone. :(

Everyday my mom yelled at me because of "MONEY". They gave me responsibility to pay the Utilities such as Electricity, Water, Cable and Internet and even to pay our house in GSIS. :( What can i do? My salary are not that big to cover it all. One time i need to absent from my work because i have a "Fever". I really feel sorry for being absent because it will be deducted from my salary. :( My mom blamed me for that.


I Love my Mom even though she always comparing me to other people and want me to be like them. I Hope she see and understand that I cannot become the one who i don't want to. "I have my own dream and have my own goal in life."


:( Oh God I want to cry!!!


"It's now on Month of November and Christmas is near and it really make me sad because i dont have savings yet. :( Is it going to be a "Lonely Christmas"?? Let's See..."