Alive in your memories

In the darkness of nighttime
As you lay down to sleep
If you hold on to memories
In your dreams we will meet
You can look at my blue eyes
Touch my black flowing hair
Whenever you need me
I'll always be there

Thru the rest of your travels
And the long road ahead
Don't give in to your sadness
Let our love guide instead
In the air all around you
I'm the wind in your face
Floating closer and closer
To our final embrace

I'm alive in your memories
Still alive in your memories
Though in this world my body has died
Inside your heart my spirit's alive
Close your eyes
Do you see?
I'm right here
Because I'm alive in your memories

Love like ours lasts forever
Thru the oceans of time
Make your earthly endevors
In the end you'll be mine
While you live out your history
I'll guide you along
Til we'll together
Right where we belong

I'm alive in your memories
Still alive in your memories
Though in this world my body has died
Inside your heart my spirit's alive
Close your eyes
Do you see?
I'm right here
Because I'm alive in your memories

Christmas Party Event

It's been a long time since i updated this blog.. medyo naging busy ako sa work this past few days.. hehehehe ngayon ok ok na.. medyo lumuwag na ang schedule ko...


Last friday, we celebrated our christmas party with Project Runway Theme... We had our Carol Presentation and Runway event..



It was my first time to sang a song in front of much people.. :( and it was a nightmare for me.. i dont know what went wrong.. maybe it's because im not used into singing... hehehehehe Oh well its really BAD for the firstimer!! It's different pala when you're performing using an instrument than singing.. anyways forget about that... nabawi naman yung kahihiyan na yun when i won the title of "Star of the night".. :) hahahaha yeah it shocking talaga.. all girls are gorgeous that night..


After the party we went to KTV room.. RockemUp ata yung place.. :p basta kung san lang kami mapadpad... =( medyo nakakahiya lang mga pinag gagawa ko that day... it was also my first time na makaubos ng BEER... Beer was not that bad pala.. actually di lang isang bote naubos ko.. We sang all night and the other group play billiards naman hangang 4 or 5 am na ata kami inabot.. nag duet pa kami ng crush ko.. :p anyways... hangang ngayong year lang yan.. maybe next year back to normal na uli... ^__^

Fire is rising.

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
................................................

Lyrics from Flyleaf.

Albert Martinez @Stratpoint

Hihihihi.. Kilig lahat ng girls... :p

How to stop yourself from falling in love?

I wonder if you can stop yourself from falling in love when you know someone is waiting for you to come back.

Life is like a boat!

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?

ALOHA

Candle under the dark light
Our promise in the glasses of wine
I’ll always be staying with u for protecting u
Cuz u are the one who trust me
What I wish is just one thing
Wish for the forever happiness
Even it’s not brilliant and dreamlike
It’s okay if ur with me

Don’t worry (I believe) Always (I believe)
I won’t forget this moment
For ur smile (I believe) in my arms
Won’t lose its light forever

Cause your love is so sweet you are my everything
This is not a sweet word just for this first night together
I’m not going to be changed
I’ll see only u always

Oh, oh, You light up my life you are the one in my life
Even I lose all my thing
I won’t regret, cuz I have unchangeable love
For only u

For me, the most valuable thing for me is u, not me
I cannot swear in a word, however, I love only u
Sometimes like friends, sometimes like lovers, till the day I die, I love only u.
Always think that we’re the one
The trust which will not sway

I wish we share our sad and happy memories
Promise me (I believe) When ur undergoing the hardtime (I believe)
I’ll be the shade for u
For ur smile(I believe)in my arms
Won’t lose its light forever

All I ever want is… your love

I really like this song... it's one of my favorite... though this was really a korean song.. but its message was so nice...

I Can't feel you anymore...

i'm thinking.. will our relationship can still work out? I'm starting to get tired of waiting.. you said you'll change but i dont see any improvements from you..

When i leave you, You grab me, and wants me to stay..
you said that you'll do everything to win me back..
For you really love me or so you really say...
but what can i do... I cant feel you anymore..

I love you more than life itself..
i did everything for you..
hope you do the same way like i do..
but is it too late? or there's still hope? i can't really say... i'm confused...




Can somebody help me? What will i do? i dont know what went wrong?
:( is it me or is it him? maybe it is me...

Anime Marathon (Tora Dora)

Me and my friend watch this new anime last night. It's Cool and also Funny! It had 6 Episode and not yet done. :( Rumor said that Episode 7 will be released on Saturday!!! Cant wait to watch it...

Anyways, We're making fun while watching... I teased him that he is Takasu and Kushieda is "Princess". He teased me back and said Im Aisaka and Kitamura is "Alexis." :D so childish!!!!

Maybe you're wondering why he's alyas was "BONOBO".. hmmm it started when he make sounds like a monkey... i think he likes his alyas naman!!! bwahahahahaha... Peace pare!!

Detroit Metal City Episode 12

Weeeeeee.. DMC Episode 12 is out... ASTIG!!! Metal Vs. Metal... It was very Funny... Watch It!!!!

Stratpoint @Tali Beach Batangaas

Last Week (Nov. 7-8) we went to Batangas as a reward by Sir Paco Sandejas for our hard work on our projects. We had our night swimming, and its amazing cause the bublles that you make in the water was glow in the dark.

After our night swimming we played Truth or Dare... @__@ I cant forget that game.. its my first time to play it.. Ang malas pa kasi katabi ko si kuya Mello... kakahiya kay Ms. Fara kasi may mga kiss sa nose, kiss sa ears, or kiss sa cheeks buti na lang alang kiss sa lips... @__@ napadami ang shot ko dun sa ininom namin dahil doon... >_< though i controlled it naman.. mahirap kasi kung malasing ako... After the truth or dare game, we played DOTA. and sayang kasi walang net.. wala pa nagtetext sa CP ko... hihihihihi oh well ok lang naman.. cause we enjoyed that event naman.

Kinabukasan we went to the main beach, kakainggit sila Ms. Fara kasi galing nila mag swim... I've tried to learned it, and natutunan ko naman agad, nandun kami sa malalim.. the problem was nakakapagod talaga sya.. nakakainis talaga... tagal ko na yun gusto matutunan para i can swim sa malalalim na part.. Kaso napapagod ako agad... @__@ Hope I Can Do It Soon... Can somebody teach me how to swim???

>_< Sana kumpleto kami that day... Mas masaya sana yun...

Detroit Metal City "Rocks"

This Anime Rocks.... It's so Funny.. Sakit nga ng tyan namin ng kakatawa e...


It is about the guy who like to be popular as a Pop Band Singer... Though he ended up to be a Heavy Metal Lead Singer.. It's so funny cause he dont like his job and he's really a very sweet and kind gentleman.. I wonder what will be the ending... T__T It had 11 Episodes at the moment... BITIN!!!!!!


I cant wait to watch its LIVE ACTION. hahahahaha... hmmm the actor seem familiar... Is he "L" from Death Note - Live Action..? Asteg!!!!!!!!


Note: I remember one of my favorite film by Cha Tae Hyun "Highway Star" but this anime was in opposite way... Watch It!! It's worth to watch!!

We Miss You DY!!

Sorry DY! di ako nakadalaw sayo... :( hope you're happy kung san ka man naroroon...

Anyways, DY was a very close friend of mine.. I admire her most cause she's really smart and very active in our activities during HighSchool. She's one of the reason why i played guitar. Napahanga kasi nya yung crush ko nung HS when she played it, so nag aral ako mag-isa mag gitara when my parents sent me to province. I'm proud naman sa result cause i learned it ng mag-isa in 1 whole week sa sobrang inspired ko. hahahaha I thank her for that. The last song that she taught me was "So Slow" by Freestyle which is very popular at that time. :( its been a months that i didnt play that instrument. i wonder if i still know the song. HOPE I STILL CAN!!! :( that's the very special memory that she left for me before she passed away..

I Had so much question in mind... I wonder what will happen after the people die. Some people say there's "Life after Death" but some says there's Heaven and Hell.


Death Song:

LAST BREATH

From those around I hear a Cry,
A muffled sob, a Hopeless sigh,
I hear their footsteps leaving slow,
And then I know my soul must Fly!
A chilly wind begins to blow,
Within my soul, from Head to Toe,
And then, Last Breath escapes my lips,
It's Time to leave. And I must Go!
So, it is True (But it's too Late)
They said: Each soul has its Given Date,
When it must leave its body's core,
And meet with its Eternal Fate.
Oh mark the words that I do say,

Who knows? Tomorrow could be your Day,
At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
Decide which now, Do NOT delay!
Come on my brothers let us pray
Decide which now, Do NOT delay!
Oh God! Oh God! I cannot see!
My eyes are Blind! Am I still Me
Or has my soul been led astray,
And forced to pay a Priceless Fee
Alas to Dust we all return,
Some shall rejoice, while others burn,
If only I knew that before
The line grew short, and came my Turn!
And now, as beneath the sod
They lay me (with my record flawed),
They cry, not knowing I cry worse,
For, they go home, I face my God!
Oh mark the words that I do say,
Who knows, Tomorrow could be your Day,
At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
Decide which now, Do NOT delay !
Come on my brothers let's pray
Decide which now, do not delay ....

I WISH I'M DEAD!!!

Well actually Me and My parents had a fight..

Naiinis ako cause I cant control my life... Nagalit sila sa akin kagabi dahil lagi daw ako late matulog at lagi daw ako nakaharap sa PC... :( Yun na lang ang libangan ko after work balak pa nila alisin... What do they want me to do? 100% focus ako sa work... I have a life for god sake!! I also need a break!!!

Lagi nila ako binubulyawan at lagi nila ako kinocompare sa iba... i know immature ako... pero di ako iresponsible... every sahod ko naman lagi ako nag cocontribute pambayad ng bills lalo na sa electricity bill... konti lang naman kinukuha ko sa electricity e... 9pm -12 or 2 am lang naman ako naglalaro/nagiinternet... and After Office hours/break... :( masama na ba akong anak nun? Yun lang ang hinihingi ko...
Nasira nga ata PC ko kasi sinuntok ng tatay ko yung CPU and hinablot yung chord.. :( PC ko yun e... binili ko yun with my own money... tapos sisirain nya lang!! :( Pinaghirapan ko yun.. :(

Everyday na lang lagi nila pinamumukha sa akin pinangtuition ko, kinakain ko araw araw and mga biniling gamit... :( Ganun ba yun? do i need to pay for all their sacrifices...? oh well.. ANAK LANG KASI AKO!!!

I'm 23 years old na.. pero they treat me as a child pa din... para akong elementary... My Golly!!!! :(

I HATE THIS LIFE!!! I WISH I'M DEAD...

P.S: Sorry Christian and Mabelle di ako nakapag goodnight kagabi...

Milky's Now Gone!!

I'm so sad.. really really sad.. Milky was my big kitty stufftoy given by him (CeeMoon). We got her in World of Fun last year. :( I hate my mom for giving it to my cousin without asking me... It has sentimental value....


I think CeeMoon was mad at me... :( DAAAAAAAAAAARNNN!!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.... I HATE HER....

Audition Mode

It's been a long time since i play this game... I miss my Character!!! hihihihihi i think ilang months din di ko ito nabuksan.. since di pa ayos ang Grand Chase at di pa nagbabayad ng utang ang brother ko sa RF Online (180M).. eto muna ang aadikin ko... hangang Back Up Rank lang siguro muna...

Sample Opponents ko....


And the Result is: BATTLE WIN!!!

hahahaha... Nakakapanibago kasi dami nagbago.. Oh well i miss my friends here.. sayang di sila Online... di ako nakapangamusta... siguro taas na ng level nila... NAIWAN NA AKO!!!!

Its 1:30 Am na... Need to go to sleep na... nagising ang dragon... :p

I 'll be dead for sure!!! :D

I enjoyed our yesterday paintball event and it was my first time to play that game. I'm just disappointed in myself cause i was out of the game easily in my first game... and in my second game i was out of the bullets... hahahahaha darn!! At first i thought that it was like the arcade games or online games that i'm playing but i was wrong "virtual world was totally different in actual world." hahaha Stupid!!!!

Anyways I cant breath in our suit... We wear a long clothing Armor to protect the skin and a goggles to protect our face... and it's very hot and very heavy specially for me... "Ang hirap ng payatot".. If that game is real, or if i'm in a real battlefield.. "I'll be dead" or "I will not survive". :p

Updated Game Line Up!!

New team composition: (Oh Well .. We're still in separated team....) hahahaha :p

Alpha	Bravo	Charlie	Delta
Norbi	Clark	Paco	Mello
Fara	Mabelle	Adet	CeeJay
Wilma	Noreen	Melissa	Moa
Christian	Teddy	Nikki	Altair
Mon	Vic G.	Kim	Aries
Chris	Joe-e	Vic D.	Henry
		Mark

Stratpoint Paintball Tournament!!

Weeeeee... Im so happy cause we will have our break tomorrow in our work... We will have our Team Building by having our Paintball Tournament in Fort Bonifacio near the Army Gym and have our Halloween Party After...

Below are the team composition:

Alpha	Bravo	Charlie	Delta
Clark		Mello
Fara	Mabelle	Adet	CeeJay
Wilma	Noreen	Melissa	Moa
Christian	Teddy	Nikki	Altair
Norbi	Vic G.	Kim	Aries
Chris	Joe-e	Vic D.	Henry

1^st Game: Bravo vs. Charlie

2^nd Game: Alpha vs. Delta

3^rd Game: Alpha-Bravo vs. Charlie-Delta

Game Mode

Game 1 & 2: Capture the Flag

Game 3: Last Team Standi

I'm just little disappointed because I'm in the Delta team which is seperated from my friends team. Hope our team will win the Game!!! hihihihihi there's still hope cause Kuya Mello is in our team... :p GO GO GO!!!

Stratpoint's Virtual Pet

Pet Society is an application in Facebook. I remember Tamagotchi in this game. It's so cool!!!


Pet Society Party:

Cyberpetpoy -> Ian
Chewy -> Kristine
Peper -> Kim
Devilishly -> Mabelle
Miyaki -> Moanna May
Porn -> Norbi
Chesca -> Fara
Momo -> Dianne

Kimchie -> (In memory of my Dog :c )

Im So Excited for the Open Beta of the NEW released game!!!

YEHEY!!!! Grand Chase will now be in Open Beta... Im So Excited!!!!

Leaving You doesn't mean I Dont love You!!

I dont know how to start this post... i just want to share what happen today... Me and my boyfriend had just broke up today... actually its my decision for us to go in seperate ways.. Leaving him doesn't mean that I dont love him... its just have some reasons why i decided that way...

There are 6 reasons why we broke up:

1. Time
2. Communications
3. Privacy and Freedom
4. Doubts
5. Family Issue
6. Immaturity

*I wont expand the meaning of it cause it will really take so much time just to explain everything* Oh Well..

He's really a nice guy and i can say that i'm so lucky to have him. His cute, LOYAL and super duper kind but there are times that we cant avoid circumstances and misuderstandings..

I have decided to have space in our relationship and go back before as what we is which is "FRIEND" is because i want him to prove hisself to me and be a better man. I want him to be mature and be responsible. I dont want him to be dependent to me all the time. I want him to have his goal and pursue to ahieve it. I want him to learn to stand on his own feet. I also want to build his trust on me and stop doubting me.

Destiny will tell if we're meant to be together forever. I'll just wait for the right man to come. If that Man is HE, i will definitely Accept him back. And start all over again. When he come back i can definitely say that he's the One or He's really mine.


Future can only tell........... God Bless Us!!

Am I Useless???

I am so insecure about everything, i think i am stupid and feel that my life is nothing and useless. I don't know what i'm going to do anymore. I feel lost and alone. :(

Everyday my mom yelled at me because of "MONEY". They gave me responsibility to pay the Utilities such as Electricity, Water, Cable and Internet and even to pay our house in GSIS. :( What can i do? My salary are not that big to cover it all. One time i need to absent from my work because i have a "Fever". I really feel sorry for being absent because it will be deducted from my salary. :( My mom blamed me for that.


I Love my Mom even though she always comparing me to other people and want me to be like them. I Hope she see and understand that I cannot become the one who i don't want to. "I have my own dream and have my own goal in life."


:( Oh God I want to cry!!!


"It's now on Month of November and Christmas is near and it really make me sad because i dont have savings yet. :( Is it going to be a "Lonely Christmas"?? Let's See..."

EMMA KUNAT

There's this lady who owed me P4,000 pesos since February and her name is EMMA. I keep on calling her "EMMA KUNAT" because she didnt pay me yet. She keep on promising but those promises are yet to be broken. I dont know if she will still pay me or not. Oh Well i believe in the word "KARMA". I hope it will get her in the end. >:)

First Post

Hell Yeah!! this is my first time to do a personal blog.. actually this was introduced by my friend "Christian"... hmmm so what can i share?...


It's 1:40 am and i still cant fall asleep... I spent all my hours in front of my computer playing Grand Chase and Chatting with my friends...


Actually wala talaga ako masabi ngayong araw... dahil nasa harap ako ng PC buong magdamag.. i even forgot to confront my Boyfriend about our relationsip which is very complicated... isip muna ako sa next post ko..